Million Reasons lyrics reflection

Hi there long lost readers,

I recently heard this song and it provided me with the brain power to write the following entry.

Lady Gaga- Million Reasons

 

Have you heard a song which grabs hold of your soul and perfectly puts words to your muddled feelings all during the first opening notes? For various reasons, which I will later disclose in a future blog entry, this emotionally charged song with its raw lyrics hit home. The following are just my rambling thoughts and reactions to the introspective lyrics. Please feel free to share your take on this song, because what is so beautiful about the gift of music and the art of lyrics are they are each able to accommodate everyone in unique ways. While on the surface it may appear this is yet another sappy breakup song about a complicated fizzling romantic relationship, the message I heard went deeper. It went to the core of the feelings of rejection, disappointment and the general thoughts of life losing its allure which probably is a place we each have unwillingly visited at some time or another.

I will preface my below commentary with the assurance that I do not have thoughts of harming myself or others, just to make sure we are on the same page. 🙂

 

You’re giving me a million reasons to let you go

You’re giving me a million reasons to quit the show

You’re givin’ me a million reasons

Give me a million reasons

Givin’ me a million reasons

About a million reasons

If I had a highway, I would run for the hills

If you could find a dry way, I’d forever be still

But you’re giving me a million reasons

Give me a million reasons

Givin’ me a million reasons

About a million reasons

 

At times life with its difficult situations and challenges can seem so overwhelming and burdensome, however, Gaga masterfully reminds us despite our feelings related to our overall satisfaction with life, these little steppingstones or stumbling blocks are not to be the end all and be all of our worth. Our faith is what sustains us through triumphs, difficulties, doubts and challenges. At times, I have felt giving up was my only escape, but that one reason I found to keep on keeping on was more than enough to drown out the million reasons why I thought giving in to depression or sadness was a better option.

 

I bow down to pray

I try to make the worst seem better

Lord, show me the way

To cut through all his worn out leather

I’ve got a hundred million reasons to walk away

But baby, I just need one good one to stay

Head stuck in a cycle, I look off and I stare

It’s like that I’ve stopped breathing, but completely aware

‘Cause you’re giving me a million reasons

Give me a million reasons

Givin’ me a million reasons

About a million reasons

And if you say something that you might even mean

It’s hard to even fathom which parts I should believe

‘Cause you’re giving me a million reasons

Give me a million reasons

Givin’ me a million reasons

About a million reasons

 

With recent realizations about where I am related to eating disorder recovery and specific relationships, I have prayed to God out of desperation for clarification and direction. Becoming bogged down by the weight of the difficult task of recovery which appears at times to be beyond achievable, it is so easy for me to become entombed by the confusing, shape-shifting negative irrational thoughts which vie for my time and attention. This part of the song also reminds me contrary to what the world wants me to believe, I can not handle everyone or anything on my own. There are times when we need to reach out to God, family or friends to either ask for a new perspective or to just escape outside our little corner of the world.

 

I bow down to pray

I try to make the worst seem better

Lord, show me the way

To cut through all his worn out leather

I’ve got a hundred million reasons to walk away

But baby, I just need one good one to stay

Baby I’m bleedin’, bleedin’

Stay

Can’t you give me what I’m needin’, needin’

Every heartbreak makes it hard to keep the faith

But baby, I just need one good one

Good one, good one, good one, good one, good one

When I bow down to pray

I try to make the worst seem better

Lord, show me the way

To cut through all his worn out leather

I’ve got a hundred million reasons to walk away

But baby, I just need one good one, good one

Tell me that you’ll be the good one, good one

Baby, I just need one good one to stay

 

Despite the ups and downs and associated struggles, my religious beliefs are one of my many reasons for staying the course, for fighting each battle as it comes and most importantly this song has helped me remember to take time to narrow my focus on the ultimate purpose and goal of this blessed adventure called life.

Until next time,

Anjelina

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